Do you ever worry about what everybody else thinks? Do you let what others think dictate how you live your life? How you choose what to do, where to go or what to say or think? Hell. We're all forced into the mainstream at least a little.
Mrs Morgan posted recently about her "awakening". It was an awesome experience to be sure. We spent a lot of years living life as we saw fit. We gave each other the gift of freedom to explore and wonder and taste and feel life as it came at us. But for all our efforts there were times we found ourselves shoved into the mainstream almost without us realizing it. We're both free spirits in every sense of the word, but even free spirits find themselves manipulated when they least expect it.
Anyone who's read my posts about the Hitchcock Railway or Riding With The Captain know how we lived our lives. What those posts don't discuss is how easy it is to find yourself making decisions based on what others might think. When Mrs Morgan and I decided to marry it wasn't because we were enamored with the concept of marriage. Our feelings would have been the same if we never had. We chose to marry because we didn't want our kids (hers and mine) to feel rejected by others. Somehow we felt we wouldn't be "legitimate" parents if we weren't married. Marriage somehow would miraculously give our living arrangement validity. Really??? How? Why?
When Mrs Morgan chose a career in wrestling she soon discovered the stigma that follows a woman who chooses to pursue a career generally viewed as one suited only to men. The fans she met along the way were infatuated with her and thought what she did was amazing. But ask any of the female fans if they'd ever consider the same career and they became embarrassed and uncomfortable with few exceptions. And the men. Hell yes. They loved watching the shows. But when asked how they'd feel about their wife, girlfriend, sister, mom....pursuing a wrestling career, they suddenly became uncomfortable and at a loss for words. Later in her career, Mrs Morgan began producing videos of the wrestling shows. They were amazingly popular and she sold her productions all over the world. It wasn't long before she got requests for videos featuring the women wrestling topless. That's when the pull of the mainstream overcame her. It wasn't that she was prudish, far from it. But she did worry that her professionalism would suffer. Somehow wrestling topless would suddenly diminish the legitimacy of what she was doing and reduce it to more of the same old soft porn available everywhere.
Now there sure as hell isn't any doubt that women wrestling topless is sexy. So what if it's considered soft porn? Chey did finally discover how silly her concerns were and her topless productions sold like nickel hotcakes in a logging camp.
Mrs Morgan and I encountered many, many circumstances much the same over the years. We let ourselves change how we lived life based on what we perceived others might think about us. We caved into the demands of the mainstream. Our spirits went dormant. We withdrew into lives devoid of passion and laughter and love. Sunrise meant nothing but just getting through another day. All that we once had was gone.
Then the day came when Mrs Morgan rediscovered the magic in her life. The magic I'd misplaced reappeared as well. It is possible to love in more than one capacity. It is possible to love more than one person. The choice to be monogamous should be just that. A choice, not a cage to be thrown into. The ability to explore and share and live and learn should be a part of life if we so choose.
Conventional, mainstream thinking says quite the opposite. It is one perspective on life. But it's not the only one. For those who ride the Hitchcock Railway, a different perspective exists. May the magic remain wrapped around our spirits as we laugh often, love much and sail on uncharted seas stretching from this lifetime into the next.
